Sunday, September 20, 2015

Life as an Older Aged Out Foster Child

Really, am I calling myself OLDER now? Well yes I guess I am. In my 30's now. Feeling older. I haven't written much because well, I've had life going on. My writing time has been slim and I have tried to keep it on the website or on hubpages.
I'm going to make an attempt to keep everyone informed from now on.
My life seems to be a never ending circle of crap, more crap, a little bit of great, followed by more crap. Maybe I am a poor decision maker, maybe I am just doomed to be in this cycle. I really don't get it.

At the end of last year I was diagnosed with Lupus, Rheumatoid arthritis, Fibromyalgia, and Hypothyroidism. My pain levels go from fully functional to not walking in a matter of hours. I'm on a handful of medicines now, each with their own messed up side effects.

On top of that I had to quit working. Even though 50% of my work was from home I became unpredictable. The other 50% was driving 8-10 hours 1-3 days a week which was no longer possible. My knees and hips can't handle long amounts of sitting or standing. I don't know why I have all of this.

On top of that the change in our income has become a strain. We are looking to move to a more affordable home now. Our home is requiring my husband to work 50+ hours a week just to stay a float. I'd like to relieve him of that by getting a cheaper home. So I've been packing.

Through all of this bad a little good has happened. My kids are doing AMAZING. I've also found sort of an internet mom online to write to and vent about life's problems and get advice from. Not really use to someone caring, so it sure is nice.

I'm going to do my best to get back into writing here a bit more. Life goes on, but writing is my vent. I hope everyone in the internet world is doing great.

2 comments:

  1. It's always good to read your thoughts, Milisa! Have a superb week, my friend.

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  2. Okay, I'm trying again. I'm happy to hear you're going to be writing more....have a super Monday!

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